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Wow Tudor I didn't realize how much I think i had a belief in all of these things put together...that we were waiting for a beautiful and evil ruler to come (from america...either Colorado or Arizona to be exact) who was going to fool many and make everyone fall in love with him and he was going to bring peace in Isreal and the world and allow them to.start building the temple but then turn on them and kill them and sit in that temple as God..and I knew somehow the lady on the beast with her cup of blood in purple and crimson had to be the catholic church because it was the only thing that sounded to me like the catholic priest hood..so I had to stay away from Catholicism ...I thought the beast would come as an actual dragon and be some pet of this man from united states and would destroy the Catholics and jews and I that there would be a type of left behind series situation where christians disappear to heaven and then come back down with jesus to help destroy the Catholics and fake jews..aka all non believers...but I also thought we had that would get knew bodies and we would like be on the earth with jesus for 1000 years while the beast was and antichrist aka satan, was jailed in hell and then the judgement day would happen after that 1000 years for unbelievers..but immstill waiting for the euphratis to finish drying and the four fallen angels to come out and kill 1/3 of the population and for some gog and mag gog war?? and then just recently started to fight with a new belief that all christians that are dead are in heaven right now waiting to come down with God..i thought we became like angles...im alll over the place in my beliefs! I didn't realize there were so many different beliefs while at the same time I believe a piece of all of them?? Wth??? Lol...can't wait to dive into the rest of this series...let me correct myself...I believed this would happen but if I didn't get out of my active addiction I still fight with then I would be left behind or die and go to hell for not chosing to be obedient...disobedience is the same as witch craft in the eyes of the Lord i think I remember reading somewhere...maybe in judges?? Or chronicles? I dont remember..but my disobedience is a slave master i can't somehow have the desire or self will to fix or diminish...I have pleaded to God so many times to change my heart and after finding your website in the past two days I have never cried harder in heartbreak to my own disobedience and I think I am starting to feel a spark of disgust in my heart and entire being for my life of sin im still in and spitting in the face of my Lord...I never even thought about keeping any day as a sabbath in all of this which I dont understand how I waa never taught how important the sabbath was!! Thank you so so so much for your obedience...praise Jesus H e changed your heart for all of this and made it your desire to get this out! For the first time ever in my life I feel real hope! Im terrified about probably getting beheaded or tortured in my lifetime....but im going to somehow get clean again and just learn to delight in Jesus finally! The battle my soul has fought the past 20 years has been exhausting! God bless your eyes being opened when so many were/ are not..

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